Something New

So I was browsing around on some other blogs and found one that I totally fell in love with! (click HERE to check it out) The design is super cute and the posts are right up my alley. Anyways, as I was reading I came across a really neat format and decided to give it a try! I thought Monday would be a perfect day to start since its the beginning of the week. =) I'm not sure if I'll keep it up every week but I know Ill give it my best shot!

So I shall call these posts...Here & Nowwwwwww....I promise to love faithfully(faitfullly), just kidding just kidding! I'm just going to call it Here & Now.

So here's the first installment.

Right Here & Now I am...

Obsessing Over: The Hunger Games trilogy! I've only finished reading the first book, but if the other two are anywhere as good as that one, I'm in for a treat! I was hoping I wouldn't have to buy the other two online because I am a fan of instant gratification buttt our WalMart only has the hard back of them...and the first one I have is paper back so I'm trying to get them in all the same sizes haha, my OCD in one of its finest forms. I'm going to check out Target and if I strike out there, then I'm ordering online.

Thinking About: Seriously how sad divorce is. Some couples work as hard as they can to make it work and it just doesn't work. It breaks my heart. I know I obviously dont know Seal and Heidi Klum but umm...who saw that one coming?! What a sad day for all of us romantic at heart's when we heard the announcement that they were splitting!

Working On: My fitness...literally. Haha! I am not even going to lie. I am not an active person...AT ALL. My husband on the other hand, spends two hours in the gym nearly every day. SO...I've been slowly making changes in my own life so I can try to transform my body to something kinda like what it used to be. I walk to pick up Max from school everyday. Now dont let me fool you into thinking its far...cause its not, about a half a mile round trip, BUT its a half a mile more than I was walking before. So I'll take it. Also I got an exercise bike...and I've been doing that almost every day 6 to 7 miles at a time. I was at first able to do 10 miles...but then my legs started laughing at me.

Anticipating: The whole month of February! It's not only my birthday month, but also the month for LOVE to come out in full force! I just love seeing people in love and expressing it! So we have a lot of plans for the next few weekends to keep up busy and what not! I dont want to give it all away right now...I need stuff to talk about later guys!

Listening To: My Britney Spears Pandora station. I've had the same one for like four years now and it literally only plays songs I like. So right now its actually playing "Giving Him Something He Can Feel" by En Vouge. Who doesn't love songs like that from the 90's?!

Eating: Sigh...nothing at this moment. I had an all natural strawberry yogurt this morning...and thats it. Trying to change the way you eat is terribly hard and really emotional surprisingly. Hahaha! Maybe its just emotional for me because of my love for food and the fact that I cant eat a majority of the things I love...like chocolate...and Dr. Pepper. SIGHHHH...

Wishing: I could make up my mind on when...or if we even should, have another baby. My husband is all about it. He says the more kids the better...I say...smart planning makes smart parents. But lets face it...I'm getting older and I refuse to have any babies after I turn thirty. So I really only have like two more years to get knocked up...or just one if we want to have two more kids. Whats a girl to do?!

Whats on your mind today?!
Talk to you soon,


Thankful Thursdays - 37

With a new year comes new challenges and as I wind my way through the ups and downs, twists and turns of life I always remember to be thankful. There are just so many things to be thankful for.

332. I'm thankful for being able to go to my first spa. It was an amazing birthday present from my friend, and the best part of it was getting to spend that quality time together and getting reminded why we have been friends for so long.

333. I'm thankful that even though I may not have a whole lot of friends, I do have friends that I can trust completely. They are friends I've had for years, and no matter what road life has taken us down, we have stayed close. I can count on this handful of friends to do more and be there for me more than a thousand "kind of" friends would be.

334. Speaking of friends. I am beyond, beyond, beyond thankful for the relationship I have with my husband. Don't get me wrong, we are just like any other normal married couple, but we are also friends. We do our best to keep each other clued in on whats going on in our respective lives. I know though that when it really comes down to the nitty gritty, he is my absolute best friend and I his. There is no one else in the world that I'd rather spend my life with.

335. I'm thankful for the way my mom raised me. I always think how different I would be had I been raised by anyone else...and I'm thankful that I wasn't. My life was challenging for a reason...and I have learned a thousand things from my troubles. Without my moms early guidance and her obvious strength in the face of adversity, I wouldn't be who I am, and I am strong.

What are you thankful for today?
Talk to you soon,



My mind is so full of ideas for posts. There are so very many things that I want to talk about and to share with the world, but I cant figure out a way to get them out of my head. I want to talk about my kids, my husband, my family, my life...just everything. Anytime I start typing something out though I delete it. Nothing sounds right anymore. Everything feels like I've already said it...but at the same time I know I haven't said everything. So today as I sit down and type this out, whats on my mind is the way I was raised, and how different I would be, and my life would be, had my mom made different choices.

Really, if you think about it, life is all choices. There is nothing that is not directly affected by any choice you make on any given day, when you do any given thing. If I had not decided to go to the races with my friends I wouldn't have made such a quick connection with my husband, I would have just met him in passing on another day. If I hadn't have decided to try those dreamsicle's, I wouldn't have developed such a craving for them so often. If I had let my body do the talking while I was pregnant with Max and not rushed my pregnancy I'm pretty sure I wouldn't have ended up with a c-section. And so on and so forth.

I've made it my mission lately to make sure I am making what I think is the best choice in any situation. Not only to make sure I end up with the best outcome, but to make sure my kids end up with the best outcome. I would hate to think that one faulty choice by me could impact the rest of their lives. I not only want, I NEED my kids to be successful in life. I need them to feel as though they have been given every opportunity possible to live their life to the fullest they can. I couldn't live with myself if something I did ended up hindering my children. That's not to say that even when you make the best choices, you end up with fabulous results, because sometimes they're horrible results. But I know that if I try and I keep praying, then my children will be fine and will be guided by not just me and Ryan, but by God as well.

So when my kids ask me for a cookie before bed, I say no. When they ask me to let them play outside, I say yes. When they are doing something unacceptable, I stop them. When the sign-up for various sports and other activities open up, I will sign them up. I will make sure to give my children enough to do that will not only keep them active, but also give them the tools they need for a successful social life, for good college applications, and lots and lots of distractions when it comes time for them to start paying attention to the opposite sex. (sigh....SO not looking forward to that)

What are you doing to ensure your children are going to be successful in life?
Talk to you soon,


It's That Time Of Year

Hi there!!

I know this blog has been completely lacking lately. Its like every year around Christmas time I lose the interest I once had for my little blog. The end of year madness and the beginning of the year calmness take over my life, and I develop some serious writers block! EEK! What to do then? Starting right now I am going to force myself to get on this computer and bang out a blog at least weekly, but hopefully more often than that. I have a ton of things to say, (like you didn't already know that haha!) I just have to figure out how to get them out of my head and onto this screen in an intelligent and understandable manner haha!

So for now I'll leave you with that because there are things to be done and babies to be taken care of this morning. Oh and also, if you're reading this, THANK YOU!! I hope you will share this blog with your friends and they might share it with their friends. And follow it! There are instructions once you hit that follow button to create a blogger or google account. You dont have to have a blog of your own at all. =)

Talk to you soon,


My 2011 Reading List UPDATED!

I know its still hot like its summer but technically in our house it isn't since Max is in school. So I changed the title of this post to My 2011 Reading List that way I can keep updating as I have been with books I want to read and crossing them off as I do read them. This list is going to end up being SUPER long haha! Everyday I find another book I want to read. Nothing wrong with that!
  • Sue Monk Kidd - The Secret Life of Bees
  • Candace Bushnell - Summer and the City
  • Candy Spelling - Candyland 
  • Sara Shepard - Twisted
  • Kathryn Stockett - The Help
  • Bristol Palin - Not Afraid of Life: My Journey So Far 
  • Jessica Simpson - I Do: Achieving Your Dream Wedding 
  • OJ Simpson/Released by the Goldman Family - I Did It: Confessions of the Killer
  • Celia Rivenbark - You Can't Drink All Day If You Don't Start in the Morning 
  • Judy Blume - Smart Women
  • Billie Letts - Where the Heart Is
  • Debra Borden - A Little Bit Married
  • Celia Rivenbark - Belle Weather
  • Elizabeth Joy Arnold - Pieces of My Sisters Life 
  • Nicholas Sparks - At First Sight 
Some of these books I already have and some of them I still have to buy. Either way I will read them all!

Talk to you soon,



Back when myspace was cool, and I didn't have a blog, I used to make a list of things I had learned in the previous year after the new year started. I thought it would be kinda neat if I re-started the tradition here on my blog, but made a few changes to the way I wrote it. Maybe I'll even share some of my old lists...and yes, my myspace account is still active, hahaha!

So instead of literally making a numbered list, I'm just going to talk about a few things that have caught my attention, taught me something, or jolted me awake through out the year.

First things first. My faith in the Lord has grown exponentially. I have always carried him in my heart but this year has really shown me how present he can really be when you ask for him. I have not only leaned on him to get me through the hard times but also asked him to be with me during the happy and easy times.I have turned to him to show me the way to handle situations that I am new to, and asked him to guide me through the things that are definitely not new to me. He has shown me how to calm myself before I let my temper...or mouth get the best of me.

I've grown as a mother this year in a few different ways. I have developed a new kind of calmness in my mothering. I used to get pretty high strung in situations where things weren't going quite my way, but as my kids get older I see that things most definitely cannot always go exactly as planned. I have found my niche in Max's school classroom, and learned my boundaries. I have learned to FIGHT the urge to crowd Max and play MAMArazzi with him. I learned to hang to the sides, where he knows I am there but I am not embarrassing him. The urge to coddle and direct him in every movement comes so naturally to me, and learning to overcome has been hard, but at the end of the day I know that I would rather not embarrass my child.

There have been a few instances this year that have not only shook me to my core but also my husband. We have seen quite a few divorces this year. Whether they were celebrities (cough, Kim K., cough cough), acquaintances, or even close friends. There is something about seeing bad relationships, seeing divorces, and hearing about what goes on behind closed doors, that can really put your own relationship into perspective. The best way to say that we have learned from all the bad things that happened and are still happening is to say that we have become more AWARE. I have always been pretty perceptive to his needs because thats how most women are, but as many of you probably know, men are not like that. Men work better with detailed instructions and a guide hahaha! So, I can't actually speak for him because he is his own person, but I can say that I have seen a change for the better within him. 

A few more things I have learned this year are:

Good things do come to those who wait...even if you have to wait a long, long time.
Most things are not as good as they look on the internet.
Don't compare yourself to other people. Your husband didn't marry them...he married YOU.
When you just cant stand it anymore, kneel. (Yes, I totally got that online, but it makes TOO MUCH sense)
You can't always get what you want.
Your kids will only be kids for so long, soak up as much love, time, and attention as you can...because then they become teenagers....dun dun duuuuunnnnn.

There is a whole bunch of other things I learned this year, but I wont drag this on any longer haha! I wish nothing but health and prosperity on you (yes, even you) and I hope you ALL have a wonderful year!

Welcome to 2012!

Talk to you soon,